Its not often you see me put 2 words into a blog title or me blogging in the second-person so this entry must be quite significant as you would have guessed.

I lost a friend today. I'm very very sad that our friendship had to end this way but I guess its not much of a choice. I know that I might have wasted some of your time and I admitted to my mistake and gave us a chance to forgive each other but you thought otherwise...

Today Daniel was cold to me as ever and we just cant sustain a good conversation. I dunno man, maybe reservist had changed you into someone I didn't know. You smoked and became lazy and still as sarcastic. But I can't believe you didnt have the kind of self control I thought you'd possess and it had greatly made me think twice...

Got to know of some friend to friend conflict that could result in smth bad. This I cant tell but it really saddens me to see friendships being broken up. I dunno but its maybe becuz i've no siblings and all you people mean A LOT to me. You guys are the consolation I get from being alone and I dun like to be all by myself.

I'm sad becuz I know my time with some of you are coming to an end and all the times we spent together would become just a memory. Passed by my sec sch today and recalled the times when I was in uniform and my sec sch friends. Most of them I had lost contact with already. My memory is not tangible and someday I know I'll only be left with fuzzy impressions of my time with you guys. Makes me remember the starting verse from Lynrd Skynyrd's Freebird: "If I leave here tomorrow, would you still remember me?"

That's why I'll spend every opportunity with you all, be it late night movies, eating my heart out on a burger or just to chit chat at macs. I'll be there if I can. A friend once told me my life had always been about giving and not receiving but I think if you guys can spend ur time with me, that's the best thing I've recieved and I hope to continue receiving.

So this post is dedicated to all you guys out there who had known me as a friend, I'll always be there.