Went through emotional turmoil yesterday.
Supposed to meet Melvin who would be my key to returning back to school for SIP. He made all these false accusations and conclusions out of my very simple reason for appealing: I am not learning anything at all.

So Daniel and I went to the conference room and Melvin started to question every single detail in my appeal letter. I really hate this because it gives me the impression that you do not trust and believe in my honesty and sincerity. Anyway, he gave me a glimmer of hope when he said he'll settle everything for me.

Daniel was a changed person that day and began to be much more of a friend than a sarcastic supervisor. Think its probably because if everything went smoothly, yesterday would be my last day at the company. If he was like that earlier, everything would be much much better la.

So after a series of discussions, of which I overheard Melvin in a phone conversation with school and figured he was LYING again about the whole truth, it all bows down to the all-so-mighty course manager. Knowing her, everything is unpredictable.

On the way back after work, Daniel was like trying to me feel better by saying that I shouldn't worry and I must not let anyone stand in my way of what I believe in. Then a couple of hours later, received a call saying that I got to stay at the company for the full 5 months. Even Daniel also said resistance is futile.

I was totally devastated. What happened to the "oh dun let anyone stand in your way" thingy? I've beared with false accusations of me that made me look bad to the school, consulting a whole bunch of lecturers about this and all and in the end it still ended up the same way. I am not satisfied with this decision.

If only the school knew what I was doing there. Washing tanks, air stones, air tubes, harvesting stinky rotifers and other menial jobs in the freaking 32 degree greenhouse. I worked so hard for the past 2.5 years, first in school and last to leave, many sleepless nights studying and all I ended up working as a manual worker. THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH TP!!

Because of this SIP, I've lost track of friends, activities and very much my social life. Everyday its like 8-6pm of manual labour and after that I'm so tired and exhausted that I cannot think of doing anything except to go home and rest. I've put in my 110% in everything I did just because I held the name of TP with me but its taking a toll on me and I've now gotten that constant backache from all the work.

I've decided that I'm not going to be a slave to fate and just bear for 5 months. I'm gonna fight for my right to ask for a better and more fulfilling work experience. Peace out.