I'm physically tired... its been a long long time since I ever felt so weak.

SIP was turning out to be a waste of my time, all I do is menial labour which even someone with PSLE could do. I am not learning and this makes me quite sad.

Had a talk with my SIP supervisor Daniel today. Didn't really like him at the start cuz he's like PMS and his mood swings are extreme. Was quite nervous and didn't know what to do as in should I stay or leave.

So I sat in the meeting room and said a prayer and left it all for the big man to decide, I trust that He'll make the best decision for me. We had a pretty long talk and he's graciously agreed to shorten my SIP term at St. John to 2 and a half months. This would mean I'd have stuff to do everyday and I get to go back to normal life out of the "Neverland" sooner. This is like the best compromise man! Thank God for that.

Anyways, I've been feeling a bit sad (no, its not because of SIP) recently. Sometimes I really admire people who have parents who listen and guide them. 19 years of being alone in the family probably forced me to have a certain level of independence, I learnt from mistakes, observations and facing my greatest enemy, myself. It has been hard for me to connect with my parents although we look fine on the outside. In fact, sometimes I find it hard to connect with other people. This is my motivation to do my photographic project called "Where has love gone?". I need to find the answers.

Yea, today's post is super emo. Almost as if I'm an anathema in this world.

Was shown this video some time ago, it moved me to tears.