Climb was very good today. Was so happy to see that Suan, Marian and Jo enjoyed today's session. Met Stan too at CA, prob one of the last times I see him before he serves the nation.

I really can't put to words how much I appreciate Stan as a friend, brother and mentor. Thinking of the times when were year 1, the day we decided to befriend each other one day before going to climb Batu Caves and not forgetting Raver's Fantasy. I remember that night I revealed my plans to quit TP climbing, till the day I officially quit. I remember the weekends we shared climbing at Yishun and how we worked at FIT and Camelot together. I remember the poem I wrote for you and the times you assured me my decision was right.

But all these memories would one day be erased and hopefully by then, I still have you by my side.

I'm very sad this semester. I feel as if I have lost everyone around me and more people are moving farther away from me. I've never felt so alone and empty before and its frightening. Maybe this is why I try so hard to hold on to who's remaining... too afraid that they would drift away if I gave slack. I think I'm waiting for someone to grab me by the hand and just run, give me some chance to follow rather than lead. But running is tough too, and I may not have the strength to run along...